Its been a long time since I posted on my blog, I’m back and have a lot to express. Lets start with my relationship status: Single. And not ready to mingle. I am so sick and tired of men and there pathetic games. I am honest, do not cheat, have and give respect to others, I can be a bitch, (but really you boys know you like that from time to time), and love and support my guy. Evidently my age was a factor, I am 34 he is 40. I thought that was a lame excuse, I knew there was more to it than that, I forced it out of him and an exhausting hour later it was done. After all the great things we talked about, the possible future, everything we both were looking for. Then its over. I felt lied to and used, I cried, then got myself together and am moving forward, again for the 9 billionth time. He also said he was developing feelings for me..Why would someone throw that away?? If something feels right go with it! Disturbing on so many levels. I will never understand fully why.